Oceanic

i used to think of myself as a compassionate person. But lately I've been feeling like a level of compassion in me starts to be unhealthy. I mean almost every little thing can upset me on the streets - old people, poor people. Things about life in common, even the thing that my mom haven't learned english when she was young upsets me coz i wish for example she could watch movies with me or smth. The way i wish she travelled all over the world and i'm not sure i can provide that for her in the future. Stuff like that, common thoughts and fears of life, death, possible grieves and sorrows of one's life, all these just makes me extra vulnerable and unstable. This pressure keeps growing and growing and i dont know what to do to take things EASIER. I must develop the sense of being secure. I used to think it can all go away if i could have somebody to love and comfort me (okay, a boyfriend), but now even this does not seem a solution to me.
Have you ever felt anything like this people? It's very childish fears, but they are being worsen by the fact that i'm kinda 19 now.